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I found a new blog/twitter like thingy on the web which I think is better than blogspot. I am currently adapting to use Tumblr rather than this site. If I find it easier and fun, I might just move there :D Here's the link.

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The Sinner


I committed yet another sin by going to the Mall XP. Hahaha! Yes, the mall is a sinful place, very much like Las Vegas. I went to the mall with some of my ex 3'O' and ex 5'H' friends :) Some couldn't make it and some just wouldn't want to come at all. Oh well~ at least we invited everyone. It was an outing to watch "New Moon". It wasn't exactly the best movie to watch just for fun because it ain't "fun" at all! Fathin made funny comments and suggestions about that movie and he was hoping to see a mermaid rather than just vampires and werewolves XP. The "dreadful" movie lasted for 2 hours, obviously Faiz, Amalia, Fathin and myself was quite restless. Oh! I even texted the wrong person on the phone when I was suppose to text my mom :P Hohohohohoho.

I am addicted to one of the shooting games in the arcade :P Its called the Rising storm??. I can't remember the title. It was one of the most expensive arcade game which costs 4 tokens = $2 per play :S But, it was worth the money! :P Faiz, Fathin and I played the game for almost..... 4 times?? Hahaha. Serious addiction, thanks to Faiz :P

My laptop is still busted :( Oh well.. Abid downloaded the OEM?? disc for Windows Vista Home Premium - thanks Abid :) - but that didn't work either. Oh well.. Might as well just go ahead and but Macbook :P :P Gah!! I feel so lost without my laptop. I can't photoshop pictures and I have a lot of "ideas" Hehehe.. can't wait to get my laptop fixed :P

Now off to watch Bleach :D
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Insomnia


Gah! It is frustrating if you can't go to sleep. For me it's double the frustration because my laptop is busted and I have something in my mind thats screwing me up tonight! :(

Lets get it off now.. shall we~

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Random thought :


Something from a past event triggered this thought. Why must I be the one to forgive everyone for what they did to me? I mean, some of 'em took my forgiveness for granted. They did something, asked for my forgiveness and did it again?? Where is the end to that? What if I do something wrong to a certain someone. Am I forgiven if I ask for that persons forgiveness? Heck! I even develop something so ridiculous about forgiveness. I even said "sorry" even though it wasn't my fault? Or even when it was suppose to be a suggestion or some sort. That clearly isn't the place to ask forgiveness. I didn't even do anything wrong. So that is why I tried not to say sorry in such circumstances. But, trying to achieve balance on when to ask for forgiveness and when not to is clearly divided into a thin imaginary line. I am the type of person who forgives everyone for anything they did to me. I don't like holding grudge because it sucks the life out of you.


Is leaving someone and walking away the same thing? Think of it in a certain situation. Your friend left you for another person and you're pissed and your friend walk away till you calm down a bit without having to hurt your feelings or whatsoever. Another thin invisible boundary line I might say. I did leave and that was because I was so badly hurt that I couldn't take it any longer. Is that my fault? Because I stayed for so long and being ignored isn't something you can withstand even for a day or two. Imagine a whole year?? So.. I left. But then I got back. I was back even though I was torn apart thinking that the pain was ages ago that you have change. But, something you did prove me wrong. You left just like you did in the past. So I decided to move on and not stay in that state for so long. I can't afford to become someone I was back when you left. I need to live my own life and not bounded to you in any way. A friend will always be a friend. A best friend will always be a best friend. Were and was doesn't play a part in such friendship. Too bad something like this can't be undone. I tried. But, it was never successful :(


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Its not working!


My laptop is Busted. :( So... I won't be IT available for sometime... Oh well.. Maybe its a sign so that I would leave my laptop and go have some kind of other fun activities.

p.s. I hate stereotype (sp) people because they ruin the fun in everything!! esp. my parents :<
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Go TaeYang :D




I never knew that TaeYang would be such a good singer and a good dancer until I saw MV Wedding Dress and Where u at. Now, I am infatuated with his songs :o. Because it speaks out the truth about real life *in a way. He is by far, my #1 favorite Korean artist / singer / dancer for now :D Looking forward to more of his songs :D But don't go leaving Big Bang for a solo career >:D
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Saranghae (L)


I haven't been updating my posts properly this past few days mostly because I was to lazy to do so plus, I'm not in the mood XP. No lah~ Just busy with some stuff :D

I hung out with lots of different crowds this December holiday, finally reaching out of that barrier that I created years ago. It was fun! It was exciting more or less like an adventure. Getting to know people like I used to and just talk about stuff.

Hanging out with the Dae members was an entirely different thing. The 4 days practice made us bonded as if we have known each other for quite a while. Apparently I'm the dad and a grandfather to the other member which was kinda awkward since I am one of the most playful members in Dae :P There's my mom too in the team and we call her Leadja XP. I am impressed on how well Dae members get along. I miss Dae so much.

Hanging out with Izy, Zirah and Amalia too is an entirely a whole new chapter in my storybook. We too get along pretty well... Mostly because of the STEP and MS youth project but, it was fun considering I'm the only guy in that group :P Another outing will be expected soon because we will be shooting a movie :P

Being with my family is too a different environment. But, I'm kinda so used to it that I just couldn't find the spark anymore. Don't get me wrong, I love my family, mom, dad, lil bro and everyone in it. But, there is just something not worth mentioning :P Move on! :D

I tried connecting with my usual friends. But it seems pointless because I didn't even get a reply. Oh well.. perhaps they're busy with their holidays and such. Don't say I didn't try. Plus.. This last few days, I left my phone "powerless" and I didn't bother to charge it since I have no credits to begin with.

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My thoughts of the day:


To what extend will you show your love to someone. Like my previous thoughts, I would give my all for that person. There was once a person that feel in love with not because of looks, but, that persons everything. But that led me nowhere nor that I have a reply or anything to end what seems to be one sided and that left me with a wound so deep that it would've taken my life if I didn't make an effort to face it as I should. But, this led to something else. It made me want to have a relationship that is based on how that person looks or just because I'm attracted to that person heck without even knowing that person! Not much of a different to a slut. The only difference is that it didn't go on as a serious relationship and I don't get paid *nor do I had sex with 'em :P jk jk :D Haha. After going through that "love story" mostly tainted with black rather than white memories. I found another love. Yet, I don't have the courage to face or even accept it because I'm not sure of the outcome. So right now I'm living my carefree life. I told my bestfriend that I'm not ready for commitment. After some serious thoughts, I would let the universe have it its way. Having said that, I will work my ass off just to get the things I wanted. Love, wealth, health, everything the universe has to offer. As for love.. It'll come by, It's no use if we force ourself on finding love. Let it come to you and once it did cherish it, hold it and never let go of it.


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Love, Ruq
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My Mask Evolved!


I can't believe my mask actually evolved after some time :o shocking!! Here's an evidence of its current life cycle :P



This picture was taken during the MS anime funfair.


The same picture then evolve into this!!





Somewhat a mixture of my so called "mask" turned into the doll in "SAW"




Photoshop is FUN! The magic touch of photoshop :P
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