Ruq's

Had a wee bit of a messed up start today. But, all is fine. I decided had to go to school today to return Fasha's headset - I accidentally kept it to myself last Thursday :P

Upon reaching school, the empty feeling came rushing towards me. I took each heavy step carrying that heavy "emptiness" - auu jangan kn belurus, empty tapi barat, don't give me that crap.. U'll know if u ever in my situation - inside me. Putting up a straight face and saying to myself "Today is gonna be a better day than yesterday". So, I gave Fasha back his headset and spent most of the time in the library doing Stats. I only managed to answer 3 questions because most of the time, I was to occupied with Rabs's Iphone. The true wonders of Iphone captivated me. Took lotsa pictures with it. Mostly that little green man on my pencil case and dog tag R - I call it "The R-rated Lil' Green Man". 

Before I went home, I spent time with Khaz talking about stuff. It helped cleared my chest. Talk about stuff that I've been meaning to say it out loud to someone. I've been longing to let it loose. Thanks for being there Khaz :)

There is this friction going on in my family. But, I'd rather keep that to myself.

I spent most of the afternoon sleeping and watched 'Gaki No Tsukai'. That made my day! :D Endless laughter, I just couldn't get enough of 'em. I decided to watch it with the rest of my family members. I guess that slightly eased up the tense atmosphere.

Currently watching You're Beautiful. It got a nice..... storyline. I think.. I don't know. I just like to watch it :P

No, I did not drown in a swimming pool.. Currently, I am drowning in misery. Sigh~ I hate feeling this way.

Shedding tears in the middle of the night. Been feeling oh so lonely.

Sigh.. Not in the mood to continue this post.

Anyway... chem practical exam was easy.... Hoping for an A.

Wow! Batah sudah ku inda update :P

Anyway, I skipped school for two days for obvious personal reasons and spent some quality time at home. Mostly sleeping :P. Lets talk about today.

I can't sleep last night so I spent my time watching Zombieland and Kindaichi season 3 starring Matsumoto Jun -  macam kanak2 ia ah :P. I spent my day today downloading movies :) Drag me to hell was..... @#!@#!@#@#%$#^%$ Hahahaha! Can't find a word to describe it :P Then.. I downloaded Orphan. I decided not to watch it because I want to watch it with a friend of mine :)

I have to end my post here tonight. I have my Chemistry Practical Exam tomorrow :s I hope siap ulihku kali ani :)






Ganbatte EVERYONE! & Goodnight :)

Hey! I'm not Emo today :) Oh so happy~

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OMG! It works!! Hahaha.. sakai much :P I don't know why I decided to have a Multiply account :P But, this is FUN! Will be posting up soon again :)

I am currently trying to cross post from Multiply to Blogspot :P Thanks to Mimi, she got me all curious about having multiply :P Hahahaha. Anyway, hope this works :)

I had a wonderful dream :)

I spent my night with this person - in real life, he's not exactly the type of person that I would dream of hanging out with - but, in my dream, that is just how I wish that person would be. The way that person talks and the way that person thinks. In real life, that person is spoiled and somewhat cold towards others. But, in my dream, that person is just the way what everyone wants that person to be.

I am happy with it. Satisfied with my dream. I do hope that person will be a better person, a better friend :)

I really want to be good friends with that person. Despite the bitterness between us.

Last night seemed unbearable though I managed to go through it. Spent most of my night staring at the ceiling thinking what led to this? What happened? Whose fault is it? A million thoughts just keep pouring inside my head but not a drop of answer. I woke up thinking that I should spend my time with my family to ease up the uneasy feelings inside me. But, they're gone - balik kampung kali. 

Sigh~ anyway, the day couldn't get anymore worse. I mean, today is a beautiful day. The sun is shining, the bird is chirping.  Today is a beautiful day!


I think I have to stop dwelling with the stuff that makes me feel so miserable and just live life the way I wanted. :) I can do this, I've been through enough to make me the happiest guy on earth! Eventhough my life is at a crossroad, but, the path leads to the same end.

I feel like drawing.

Haven't started with my flash website :P I was too busy with my thoughts :P

Gara-gara daman, I got a pimple on my forehead! Gah! I hate this!

Anyway, I decided to not go to school during my study leave today because I was sick - a lil bit sick. I have this problem - it is not really a problem unless you consider it a problem - with my friends. After much thought and consideration, I am going to put that aside and just go with the flow. But, I'm still going to change what needs to be change. 

I have to be honest with my feelings. I am sad. But, that does not mean I have to feel that way my whole life! and I'm not gonna let anyone make me feel sad.

Gah! This pimple is killing me!!

Oyea! I hurt myself after trying to peel off the skin of a Durian :P Despite the not so severe loss of blood, I successfully peeled it off! Not a bad try for a not so kampung boy.


*Haepi Boebul*

Thats it I guess.

PS. I am currently working on a flash website. I do hope it turns out well. :)

Been having bad days lately. My mood swing is acting up again - it has been the cause of my usual emo mood. 

This is my first time ever blogging in my school's counseling room. This is somewhat disturbing. Everyone is currently busy doing what they are doing. I can see my friends with their laptop minding their own business and others revising for their next exams.

I am currently sitting all alone - here blogging - minding my own business. I only slept for half an hour today. I was online with my best friend who is studying in UK. It has been a while since we last talked / chat. Life hasn't been all jolly since he started studying in UK - though there are still happy moments here in Brunei. Lately, life has been demanding. It has by far swept me off my feet making me feel so down. I have to stop this and its time to get up.

Anyway, last night was the best night. Although it was a bit rough because I tend to get all pissed off if my feelings is all jumbled up. I'm sorry buddy, but, I'm glad that we finally talked. Tears ran down my face till the sun rises. I was just too happy to even let anything stop my tears of joy.

I love paranormal stuff. I am a die hard fan for those kinds of stuff be it a movie or real life. But, one thing about horror or ghost movies is that the ending SUCKS! BIG TIME!  Either the so called 'ghost' turns out to be a fake or everyone ended up dead! I'm not expecting any happy ending or anything like that but, couldn't it be more interesting or something.

This is seriously a good book. It tells us about a secret that has been - to some people - knowingly practice it and apply it to their advantage and becoming the most successful person on earth. People like Leonardo da Vinci, Donal Trump, Mahatma Ghandi, and so on. All the great leaders, inventors, wealthy people use 'The Secret'. It also tells us that no matter what religion you are from, The Secret is always there, for every religion explains The Secret in its own unique ways. But, to ones logic, though The Secret comes in many different forms of explanation, there is one thing that clearly explains how the secret work is, its law - The Law of Attraction. You want it you got it.

Seriously! a very good book. Batah plang sudah ni buku ah~ There is also another book, The Secret for Teen Powers which is specifically for teens. Its a lot easier to understand and most of the example relates to some of teenagers life to which teens who read this book can see from their point of view instead of a general view of the secret. I bought this 'Teen Power' book about a week ago. Here's a picture of it.


This book is worth it. It is a bit pricy, I bought it for BND 33.80. Then again, anything for a good book :)

I've been reading this book for days now and applying some of it to get the idea and the result kinda surprised me :)

I get what I asked for! Another unusual day for me. I had my AS Pure Maths Exams today. It was an easy paper but the invigilators looked like a group of evil Teletubbies so I panicked. I manage to answer SOME of it and I do hope its enough. Basically this is what I looked like when the invigilator said "You have 8 mins left."