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I found a new blog/twitter like thingy on the web which I think is better than blogspot. I am currently adapting to use Tumblr rather than this site. If I find it easier and fun, I might just move there :D Here's the link.

Ruq on Tumblr

I committed yet another sin by going to the Mall XP. Hahaha! Yes, the mall is a sinful place, very much like Las Vegas. I went to the mall with some of my ex 3'O' and ex 5'H' friends :) Some couldn't make it and some just wouldn't want to come at all. Oh well~ at least we invited everyone. It was an outing to watch "New Moon". It wasn't exactly the best movie to watch just for fun because it ain't "fun" at all! Fathin made funny comments and suggestions about that movie and he was hoping to see a mermaid rather than just vampires and werewolves XP. The "dreadful" movie lasted for 2 hours, obviously Faiz, Amalia, Fathin and myself was quite restless. Oh! I even texted the wrong person on the phone when I was suppose to text my mom :P Hohohohohoho.

I am addicted to one of the shooting games in the arcade :P Its called the Rising storm??. I can't remember the title. It was one of the most expensive arcade game which costs 4 tokens = $2 per play :S But, it was worth the money! :P Faiz, Fathin and I played the game for almost..... 4 times?? Hahaha. Serious addiction, thanks to Faiz :P

My laptop is still busted :( Oh well.. Abid downloaded the OEM?? disc for Windows Vista Home Premium - thanks Abid :) - but that didn't work either. Oh well.. Might as well just go ahead and but Macbook :P :P Gah!! I feel so lost without my laptop. I can't photoshop pictures and I have a lot of "ideas" Hehehe.. can't wait to get my laptop fixed :P

Now off to watch Bleach :D

Gah! It is frustrating if you can't go to sleep. For me it's double the frustration because my laptop is busted and I have something in my mind thats screwing me up tonight! :(

Lets get it off now.. shall we~

My laptop is Busted. :( So... I won't be IT available for sometime... Oh well.. Maybe its a sign so that I would leave my laptop and go have some kind of other fun activities.

p.s. I hate stereotype (sp) people because they ruin the fun in everything!! esp. my parents :<

I haven't been updating my posts properly this past few days mostly because I was to lazy to do so plus, I'm not in the mood XP. No lah~ Just busy with some stuff :D

I hung out with lots of different crowds this December holiday, finally reaching out of that barrier that I created years ago. It was fun! It was exciting more or less like an adventure. Getting to know people like I used to and just talk about stuff.

Hanging out with the Dae members was an entirely different thing. The 4 days practice made us bonded as if we have known each other for quite a while. Apparently I'm the dad and a grandfather to the other member which was kinda awkward since I am one of the most playful members in Dae :P There's my mom too in the team and we call her Leadja XP. I am impressed on how well Dae members get along. I miss Dae so much.

Hanging out with Izy, Zirah and Amalia too is an entirely a whole new chapter in my storybook. We too get along pretty well... Mostly because of the STEP and MS youth project but, it was fun considering I'm the only guy in that group :P Another outing will be expected soon because we will be shooting a movie :P

Being with my family is too a different environment. But, I'm kinda so used to it that I just couldn't find the spark anymore. Don't get me wrong, I love my family, mom, dad, lil bro and everyone in it. But, there is just something not worth mentioning :P Move on! :D

I tried connecting with my usual friends. But it seems pointless because I didn't even get a reply. Oh well.. perhaps they're busy with their holidays and such. Don't say I didn't try. Plus.. This last few days, I left my phone "powerless" and I didn't bother to charge it since I have no credits to begin with.

I can't believe my mask actually evolved after some time :o shocking!! Here's an evidence of its current life cycle :P

Its DECEMBER! 3rd Dec to be exact and guess what!! Today is Harraz's 3rd BIRTHDAY! :D Happy Birthday Lil Bro! krg th ku photoshop gambarnya :P

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha! :D

Its another raya day with cuzzies and family :) Though it started out as a bad morning :( Well.. enough about today.

I haven't been posting up much lately. I was busy with dance practice with Dae's that I hardly had time to blog about it. Now that cca closing is done. I'm Free! n it's HOLIDAY :D December is approaching fast :( to fast :'( Oh well, life must go on~ will be a year older next year, hoping to be wiser.

Let's talk about Dae. I miss you guys!! It has been 3 days since we last saw each other! I miss the happy moments with each and every one of you guys and I miss dance practice :( I can't wait for our outing this MonDae :) I miss our Inkigayo performance and our Music Bank :) I love the song Wedding Dress and memorized the lyrics :) The only reason to go back to puccawuppa is Dae. Dae is my everything :) I love you Dae.

Will be posting up soon! Something came up :P

This is a late post but hey! I'm FREE! :D

The first thing I did to declare last Friday my Independence day was watching this! At Empire with Faiz, Hajar and Umniyah. Actually Rabs and Farina were there but they attended the University talk which was also held at the Empire. Confession!! That was my first time in the Empire lobby! Sakai ku yo! :P


This movie is absolutely to die for! Killer graphic details, killer sound effects. It was the best doomsday movie ever made! People did have different opinions about the ending. But hey! Its better than a really suckish ending like this cheap boring movie.


So yea. I can't believe that I decided to go to puccawuppa! But I would avoid going to Bobochopydongdong. I don't want to take the risk of losing myself and feeling down just because of that place. Plus I have Korean Culture practice to attend to. It almost felt like field performance and that opening performance of Pesta Sukan Remaja but without the pu2 people :'(


My PS2 is busted! It couldn't play any of my game! It keeps saying " PLEASE INSERT PLAYSTATION 2 DISC" Bukannya ku babal! auuuu! ku masukkan cd ps2 dah! bukannya cd biasa tu!! I don't think my PS2 is going crazy and beginning to only work on golden discs :(. That is why I turn to another alternative~ computer games!! Hafyz is looking for an online multiplayer game and last night, we ended up with this game "Sword of the New World" just because Hafyz said "Rugged sal kalau d tembak, orgnya terabang" Haha! Apakan... Anyway, will be wearing white for the Korean Culture performance :D aku nada white jacket :( Must.... buy...... one......

The form 4's had their Talent time today :D. It was fun to see them so "into it" though there were lots of mistakes and technical difficulties here and there. But, I enjoyed watching 'em. That person looked good today :D

Nabil was spotted in a subway station in Paris :O IN HIS SCHOOL UNIFORM! LoL! Sakai ku photoshop ani eh :D

This is yet another confession. Aku banarnya ada kembar... kembar empat :P So... yea. That explains everything XD

Hey! My first ever DotA experience using Garena and I lost! Eventhough I win based on all the scores. I used Crystal Maiden for the second time and opponent whose nickname was asz2410 used the suicidal goblin bomber guys *I can't remember the name*

So anyway, I lost but I won in the end. That dude is suicidal! but his tactics proves effective against my character. I will win the next time I see him!!  :D

I'm getting married! LoL! I am currently obsessed with yet another Korean song, Wedding Dress by Tae Yang, he is one of the members of Big Bang. Here's a picture of 'em.


The picture obviously showed you which one is TaeYang right. Anyway, his MV did look like Doushite by DBSK. But, what the heck, It was the best of 2009! Here's the MV :)


Anyway, I love it! Though I still don't like his hair... and those tight pants... Something casual would be nice :P

Hope you'll like it :P Mimi did :D

Today was rather a disappointing day for me. I had my hopes high just to see it crashing down in the end. :D Still in the end, I should feel happy that I'm still alive and well :P

I had a fight with mom... I think. I don't know. I refused to wash her car today :P because I was too busy with my cuz plus I am still not in the mood because she refused to watch 2012 with me today. If she had the time to decline my offer then I might as well decline hers as well. Its a win win situation! Though I should not have refused hers.

Its troublesome when you can't really talk to your parents about the things that is going on in your head. They don't seem to understand us quite well. They always say to us that if we ever have any problem, just tell them. But, when we do, their answer would either be "Jangan th d pikirkan tu" or "Sekali, kenapakan? masalahnya jua tu. Yang kau kn sibuk2 kenapa?". That sort of thing. They never really give us any real guidance on how to face it. They just simple told us to avoid it, when, in a way it really is your problem to begin with. With that sort of "guidance" from our dearly beloved parents, we turn to our friends.

Having lots of friends is also troublesome and also some will be there for you when you need them most. If I'm really pissed at my parents, I would be so damn angry at my friends, to let go all of the anger towards my parents by releasing it to someone else. As stated that "Berdosa jika menderhaka terhadap kedua ibu bapa". My friends would be the victim. I am the type of person who easily forgives someone. But now that I realize, there are some who won't accept forgiveness. I know saying "sorry" wont change a thing and what was said cannot be taken back. But, what do we have to do to change it? If we can't seek forgiveness? I mean, even God and prophet forgives everything and everyone. I think I've said enough. I don't want to feel sad tonight.. who does? I just want to live a happy life that I deserve.

Yes! I'm putting a Noroi on the school! Noroi means a curse* I thought it was Bobochopydongdong's fault. But, in fact it was the school's fault!

Bubble bubble Happy Bubble
Bubble bubble boil and bubble
Turn the school upside down
Be gone pain
Be gone with all!

There goes my Noroi. Lets name the school something else, pucawuppa! Redo the sentence!

There goes my Noroi on Pucawuppa. Bobochopydongdong wasn't at fault at all. But, Bobochopydongdong is part of Pucawuppa so, F-You! n You!!

Sigh~ I'm still sober...................

Still sober.........................

Sober...............

Sober...............

Sober...............

Sober...............

DONE! Okay! No more :D Life must go on~ Though it hurts but it has been like this for years so~ whatever. Not much of a difference :') sadly

Sober............

Noroi Noroi~


The MA4 PRS held the game of the geeks today. It was tiring! But it was somewhat Fun. Got the chance to hangout with Doraemon today. I miss him. I really do! Smile always Doraemon!

A friend of mine, she's a girl, she's my friend.. so that makes her my shefriend. apakan! wadapak banar! Anyway, she and I and another shefriend, took a lot of invisible pictures. I'm still trying to figure out how to post the pictures on Facebook.


So hey, I'm moody tonight. Says my previous post. And Nabil disappeared!

G'night!

PS. I wanna watch 2012 tomorrow!

Yes, it went out of control
No, nothing will be forgiven
Can't blame anyone for that.

Nothing but an old crush
Can't help but feeling crushed

Never a dull moment
But, it was there all along

No one seem to care
Nothing seem matter anymore
What was lost had been found
What was found is once again lost
Will it be forever?
Or will it soon be over?

I lost my head again
Promised never to let go
Never had anything to hold on to in the first place
Nothing seem matter anymore
No one seem to care

Another addiction! I am seriously addicted to facebook games! Here is a list of current FB games that I'm addicted to:

Masa ani~ ada org craving sushi~ aku ani malas jua kn email arahnya gambar sushi~~ so~~ Here's the sushi yg ku janji kan :D

So~ Bayo was.... EASY! I think.. it felt easy, I managed to do it, I fell asleep.. So YES! EASY! Hoping for an A~ :D                                  Bayo = Bio. Lol! Apakan aku ah!


The counseling room is as dull as ever. Its all in my head. But, my mind is set to "dull" mode the moment I enter that "room". I'm in the mood for naming things. Lets call Counseling Room, Bobochopydongdong. Lets redo this paragraph once more.

Bobochopydongdong is as dull as ever. Its all in my head. But, my mind is set to "dull" mode the moment I enter Bobochopdongdong. Lol. Salah bunyinya :P. I can't blame anyone or Bobochopydongdong for making me feel that way. I just can't help it. The course of life made Bobochopydongdong "dull". It affects everyone making most of us trying ever so hard to avoid Bobochopydongdong eventhough it wasn't his fault. I'm sorry Bobochopydongdong. I just can't afford to face you, at least not now. Abiskn exam~ baru th~~ kali......

I'm in the mood to make plans with my cuzzies for this upcoming December holiday :D Bukannya ku belayar, nada ku sanggup kn jaga adiku arah kapal terbang or manasaja di luar negri. But, I want to go KL or UK, oh~ angan2 saja lah :') emo th ku ni malam ani sal tekanang. Lumpat2 ku lu atas katil.


*Lumpat*


*Lumpat*


*Lumpat*


*Lumpat*


Done! Not emo anymore. Whatever.

I met Kym and Farina before I went home and Kym asked me "Is sitting next to a girl you like considered making a move?" and I answered "Making dinner for a girl you like is still not considered making a move". Apakan... Lol! From my opinion, making a move is verbal indication to let someone know that you like that person both directly and indirectly. Bla bla bla~ I'm a clairsentience so what do I care. :P

I went out with my parents and my babybroraz and ate at foodzone somewhere around.... Gaydong? I can't pinpoint the exact location :P apakan.... aku nda tau namanya saja :P


Then made a quick stop a Le'Apple. P aku menyamal, parents ku nda mau balikan aku cake.. a five layer chocolate for my dessert. Sigh.. KARIT!! MASIH LAGI KU MENYAMAL NI!! LOL.

A random thought came across my mind while I was surfing the net. I was thinking of what to do n what not to do if I get trap under fallen debris of concretes after an earthquake. Not that Brunei had any.

If your building collapses, climb under your table and practice yoga postures.

Had a wonderful day today, though, it wasn't what I expected, but it certainly was awesome :)

It was certainly a fulfilling Sunday :D I didn't waste my precious time like I did with my previous Sundays. Today, Cuzzie Wardah held a 'makan-makan' event. A special event just for her Dad's and Mom's side of the family. There were lotsa people! People I don't even know!! But, It was fun :) It has been a while since we had that much of a gathering :)

I woke up a wee bit late so I rushed to take my bath and all. Had a really really really small and short breakfast and off to KK! Kampung Kupang.

Had a wee bit of a messed up start today. But, all is fine. I decided had to go to school today to return Fasha's headset - I accidentally kept it to myself last Thursday :P

Upon reaching school, the empty feeling came rushing towards me. I took each heavy step carrying that heavy "emptiness" - auu jangan kn belurus, empty tapi barat, don't give me that crap.. U'll know if u ever in my situation - inside me. Putting up a straight face and saying to myself "Today is gonna be a better day than yesterday". So, I gave Fasha back his headset and spent most of the time in the library doing Stats. I only managed to answer 3 questions because most of the time, I was to occupied with Rabs's Iphone. The true wonders of Iphone captivated me. Took lotsa pictures with it. Mostly that little green man on my pencil case and dog tag R - I call it "The R-rated Lil' Green Man". 

Before I went home, I spent time with Khaz talking about stuff. It helped cleared my chest. Talk about stuff that I've been meaning to say it out loud to someone. I've been longing to let it loose. Thanks for being there Khaz :)

There is this friction going on in my family. But, I'd rather keep that to myself.

I spent most of the afternoon sleeping and watched 'Gaki No Tsukai'. That made my day! :D Endless laughter, I just couldn't get enough of 'em. I decided to watch it with the rest of my family members. I guess that slightly eased up the tense atmosphere.

Currently watching You're Beautiful. It got a nice..... storyline. I think.. I don't know. I just like to watch it :P

No, I did not drown in a swimming pool.. Currently, I am drowning in misery. Sigh~ I hate feeling this way.

Shedding tears in the middle of the night. Been feeling oh so lonely.

Sigh.. Not in the mood to continue this post.

Anyway... chem practical exam was easy.... Hoping for an A.

Wow! Batah sudah ku inda update :P

Anyway, I skipped school for two days for obvious personal reasons and spent some quality time at home. Mostly sleeping :P. Lets talk about today.

I can't sleep last night so I spent my time watching Zombieland and Kindaichi season 3 starring Matsumoto Jun -  macam kanak2 ia ah :P. I spent my day today downloading movies :) Drag me to hell was..... @#!@#!@#@#%$#^%$ Hahahaha! Can't find a word to describe it :P Then.. I downloaded Orphan. I decided not to watch it because I want to watch it with a friend of mine :)

I have to end my post here tonight. I have my Chemistry Practical Exam tomorrow :s I hope siap ulihku kali ani :)






Ganbatte EVERYONE! & Goodnight :)

Hey! I'm not Emo today :) Oh so happy~

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Click on the play button :)

OMG! It works!! Hahaha.. sakai much :P I don't know why I decided to have a Multiply account :P But, this is FUN! Will be posting up soon again :)

I am currently trying to cross post from Multiply to Blogspot :P Thanks to Mimi, she got me all curious about having multiply :P Hahahaha. Anyway, hope this works :)

I had a wonderful dream :)

I spent my night with this person - in real life, he's not exactly the type of person that I would dream of hanging out with - but, in my dream, that is just how I wish that person would be. The way that person talks and the way that person thinks. In real life, that person is spoiled and somewhat cold towards others. But, in my dream, that person is just the way what everyone wants that person to be.

I am happy with it. Satisfied with my dream. I do hope that person will be a better person, a better friend :)

I really want to be good friends with that person. Despite the bitterness between us.

Last night seemed unbearable though I managed to go through it. Spent most of my night staring at the ceiling thinking what led to this? What happened? Whose fault is it? A million thoughts just keep pouring inside my head but not a drop of answer. I woke up thinking that I should spend my time with my family to ease up the uneasy feelings inside me. But, they're gone - balik kampung kali. 

Sigh~ anyway, the day couldn't get anymore worse. I mean, today is a beautiful day. The sun is shining, the bird is chirping.  Today is a beautiful day!


I think I have to stop dwelling with the stuff that makes me feel so miserable and just live life the way I wanted. :) I can do this, I've been through enough to make me the happiest guy on earth! Eventhough my life is at a crossroad, but, the path leads to the same end.

I feel like drawing.

Haven't started with my flash website :P I was too busy with my thoughts :P

Gara-gara daman, I got a pimple on my forehead! Gah! I hate this!

Anyway, I decided to not go to school during my study leave today because I was sick - a lil bit sick. I have this problem - it is not really a problem unless you consider it a problem - with my friends. After much thought and consideration, I am going to put that aside and just go with the flow. But, I'm still going to change what needs to be change. 

I have to be honest with my feelings. I am sad. But, that does not mean I have to feel that way my whole life! and I'm not gonna let anyone make me feel sad.

Gah! This pimple is killing me!!

Oyea! I hurt myself after trying to peel off the skin of a Durian :P Despite the not so severe loss of blood, I successfully peeled it off! Not a bad try for a not so kampung boy.


*Haepi Boebul*

Thats it I guess.

PS. I am currently working on a flash website. I do hope it turns out well. :)

Been having bad days lately. My mood swing is acting up again - it has been the cause of my usual emo mood. 

This is my first time ever blogging in my school's counseling room. This is somewhat disturbing. Everyone is currently busy doing what they are doing. I can see my friends with their laptop minding their own business and others revising for their next exams.

I am currently sitting all alone - here blogging - minding my own business. I only slept for half an hour today. I was online with my best friend who is studying in UK. It has been a while since we last talked / chat. Life hasn't been all jolly since he started studying in UK - though there are still happy moments here in Brunei. Lately, life has been demanding. It has by far swept me off my feet making me feel so down. I have to stop this and its time to get up.

Anyway, last night was the best night. Although it was a bit rough because I tend to get all pissed off if my feelings is all jumbled up. I'm sorry buddy, but, I'm glad that we finally talked. Tears ran down my face till the sun rises. I was just too happy to even let anything stop my tears of joy.

I love paranormal stuff. I am a die hard fan for those kinds of stuff be it a movie or real life. But, one thing about horror or ghost movies is that the ending SUCKS! BIG TIME!  Either the so called 'ghost' turns out to be a fake or everyone ended up dead! I'm not expecting any happy ending or anything like that but, couldn't it be more interesting or something.

This is seriously a good book. It tells us about a secret that has been - to some people - knowingly practice it and apply it to their advantage and becoming the most successful person on earth. People like Leonardo da Vinci, Donal Trump, Mahatma Ghandi, and so on. All the great leaders, inventors, wealthy people use 'The Secret'. It also tells us that no matter what religion you are from, The Secret is always there, for every religion explains The Secret in its own unique ways. But, to ones logic, though The Secret comes in many different forms of explanation, there is one thing that clearly explains how the secret work is, its law - The Law of Attraction. You want it you got it.

Seriously! a very good book. Batah plang sudah ni buku ah~ There is also another book, The Secret for Teen Powers which is specifically for teens. Its a lot easier to understand and most of the example relates to some of teenagers life to which teens who read this book can see from their point of view instead of a general view of the secret. I bought this 'Teen Power' book about a week ago. Here's a picture of it.


This book is worth it. It is a bit pricy, I bought it for BND 33.80. Then again, anything for a good book :)

I've been reading this book for days now and applying some of it to get the idea and the result kinda surprised me :)

I get what I asked for! Another unusual day for me. I had my AS Pure Maths Exams today. It was an easy paper but the invigilators looked like a group of evil Teletubbies so I panicked. I manage to answer SOME of it and I do hope its enough. Basically this is what I looked like when the invigilator said "You have 8 mins left."