Another thought :)
Today was rather a disappointing day for me. I had my hopes high just to see it crashing down in the end. :D Still in the end, I should feel happy that I'm still alive and well :P
I had a fight with mom... I think. I don't know. I refused to wash her car today :P because I was too busy with my cuz plus I am still not in the mood because she refused to watch 2012 with me today. If she had the time to decline my offer then I might as well decline hers as well. Its a win win situation! Though I should not have refused hers.
Its troublesome when you can't really talk to your parents about the things that is going on in your head. They don't seem to understand us quite well. They always say to us that if we ever have any problem, just tell them. But, when we do, their answer would either be "Jangan th d pikirkan tu" or "Sekali, kenapakan? masalahnya jua tu. Yang kau kn sibuk2 kenapa?". That sort of thing. They never really give us any real guidance on how to face it. They just simple told us to avoid it, when, in a way it really is your problem to begin with. With that sort of "guidance" from our dearly beloved parents, we turn to our friends.
Having lots of friends is also troublesome and also some will be there for you when you need them most. If I'm really pissed at my parents, I would be so damn angry at my friends, to let go all of the anger towards my parents by releasing it to someone else. As stated that "Berdosa jika menderhaka terhadap kedua ibu bapa". My friends would be the victim. I am the type of person who easily forgives someone. But now that I realize, there are some who won't accept forgiveness. I know saying "sorry" wont change a thing and what was said cannot be taken back. But, what do we have to do to change it? If we can't seek forgiveness? I mean, even God and prophet forgives everything and everyone. I think I've said enough. I don't want to feel sad tonight.. who does? I just want to live a happy life that I deserve.
I had a fight with mom... I think. I don't know. I refused to wash her car today :P because I was too busy with my cuz plus I am still not in the mood because she refused to watch 2012 with me today. If she had the time to decline my offer then I might as well decline hers as well. Its a win win situation! Though I should not have refused hers.
Its troublesome when you can't really talk to your parents about the things that is going on in your head. They don't seem to understand us quite well. They always say to us that if we ever have any problem, just tell them. But, when we do, their answer would either be "Jangan th d pikirkan tu" or "Sekali, kenapakan? masalahnya jua tu. Yang kau kn sibuk2 kenapa?". That sort of thing. They never really give us any real guidance on how to face it. They just simple told us to avoid it, when, in a way it really is your problem to begin with. With that sort of "guidance" from our dearly beloved parents, we turn to our friends.
Having lots of friends is also troublesome and also some will be there for you when you need them most. If I'm really pissed at my parents, I would be so damn angry at my friends, to let go all of the anger towards my parents by releasing it to someone else. As stated that "Berdosa jika menderhaka terhadap kedua ibu bapa". My friends would be the victim. I am the type of person who easily forgives someone. But now that I realize, there are some who won't accept forgiveness. I know saying "sorry" wont change a thing and what was said cannot be taken back. But, what do we have to do to change it? If we can't seek forgiveness? I mean, even God and prophet forgives everything and everyone. I think I've said enough. I don't want to feel sad tonight.. who does? I just want to live a happy life that I deserve.
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